jonnuhgooyen

21 | College Graduate | Socal. I find many things interesting. Probably 5% of my interests are posted on here. I mainly use this to keep myself going.
40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 7: What impact do you want to leave on the world? I’m not entirely sure how I want to impact the world just yet. I don’t know if I want to be philanthropist, a part-time volunteer at a soup kitchen, or even a person on the community council. There are so many ways to impact the world, but I think that I strongly want to do it through education. I think education is a ‘seed’ that persists through many generations. If you can change a person, you’ve basically changed their whole timeline and future lineage. All this is in the future though. Today is not tomorrow. Thus, I think that I would really like to impact people with just my presence. I strive to be the role model that I wish I had and as a result hopefully I will inspire others. A lot of my students have asked for advice and wonder how I do the things I do. People have even told me that they love how fun I make life out to be and just my positive enthusiasm in general. Of course, I do have blunders, mistakes, and frustrations, but some of my closest friends have told me that they are amazed and awed at how quickly I get back up. (To stop myself from rambling anymore and getting a big head haha) I just want to impact people positively not necessarily through events but through my general existence. I want to live a positive life and I hope people decide to live in similar ways. :)

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 7: What impact do you want to leave on the world?

I’m not entirely sure how I want to impact the world just yet. I don’t know if I want to be philanthropist, a part-time volunteer at a soup kitchen, or even a person on the community council. There are so many ways to impact the world, but I think that I strongly want to do it through education. I think education is a ‘seed’ that persists through many generations. If you can change a person, you’ve basically changed their whole timeline and future lineage. All this is in the future though. Today is not tomorrow. Thus, I think that I would really like to impact people with just my presence. I strive to be the role model that I wish I had and as a result hopefully I will inspire others. A lot of my students have asked for advice and wonder how I do the things I do. People have even told me that they love how fun I make life out to be and just my positive enthusiasm in general. Of course, I do have blunders, mistakes, and frustrations, but some of my closest friends have told me that they are amazed and awed at how quickly I get back up. (To stop myself from rambling anymore and getting a big head haha) I just want to impact people positively not necessarily through events but through my general existence. I want to live a positive life and I hope people decide to live in similar ways. :)

“i expect nothing less of you.”

lately, i’ve been expressing my goals and my current daily accomplishments and whatnot, and i’ve been noticing this statement lately. it’s simple but it makes me happy to think that people expect something from me and that i have exceeded those expectations in some cases. it’s a simple phrase but it really shows how supportive someone is and how observant of your growth they are. it fills me with joy to know that i’ve surrounded myself with these types of people who push me to new heights and know that i am capable of so much more when i doubt and criticize myself. so for that—thank you.

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 6: If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? We are afraid of making mistakes because we are afraid of wasting our resources and being ridiculed for it. We are afraid of the embarrassment. However, the embarrassment is all in our heads. Other people don’t feel our shame; we feel our own shame. Thus, rather than think of something as embarrassing, we should simply laugh it off. So what if you make a mistake? Many other things could have happened. It really is not the end of the world. In addition, if you make a mistake, you are more likely to not make that same mistake when it really counts. Moreover, mistakes help you realize what you can and cannot do. So rather than wallow in overestimations and underestimations, find out where you stand because if you continue to teeter in limbo, you won’t find what you want. 

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 6: If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

We are afraid of making mistakes because we are afraid of wasting our resources and being ridiculed for it. We are afraid of the embarrassment. However, the embarrassment is all in our heads. Other people don’t feel our shame; we feel our own shame. Thus, rather than think of something as embarrassing, we should simply laugh it off. So what if you make a mistake? Many other things could have happened. It really is not the end of the world. In addition, if you make a mistake, you are more likely to not make that same mistake when it really counts. Moreover, mistakes help you realize what you can and cannot do. So rather than wallow in overestimations and underestimations, find out where you stand because if you continue to teeter in limbo, you won’t find what you want. 

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 5: What is the difference between living and existing? To be alive is the minimum. To breathe, to be told what to do, to live on external aspirations—that is what it means to be alive. To live is to go beyond what is expected of us. Whether the expectations are from ourselves or others, I believe that living requires us to continually surpass limitations. Humans aren’t frail creatures. We are life-long learners, and I think the sooner people realize their potential, the happier they can become. To live is to constantly step forward, to not depreciate ourselves, to appreciate our environment, to love what we have, to thirst for what we don’t have, and to live for our own sakes. (I took this one from my previous post.)

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 5: What is the difference between living and existing?

To be alive is the minimum. To breathe, to be told what to do, to live on external aspirations—that is what it means to be alive. To live is to go beyond what is expected of us. Whether the expectations are from ourselves or others, I believe that living requires us to continually surpass limitations. Humans aren’t frail creatures. We are life-long learners, and I think the sooner people realize their potential, the happier they can become. To live is to constantly step forward, to not depreciate ourselves, to appreciate our environment, to love what we have, to thirst for what we don’t have, and to live for our own sakes. (I took this one from my previous post.)

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 4: If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend? I would keep that friend 5ever. I get a lot of motivation from myself to do things and I think if my self-motivation manifested into a person, then that person would be a great coach. In addition, I love myself. Of course, I have doubts and insecurities at times, but I don’t get emotionally constipated. I rarely hang on to negative emotions because I know that negativity doesn’t help me get anywhere. Thus, having a friend who keeps telling me to not sweat the small stuff, to relax and enjoy what I can do, to not let fear overwhelm me, and to remember that I am amazing would be great. Oh wait. I have friends like those. haaaaaaaaaah.

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 4: If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?

I would keep that friend 5ever. I get a lot of motivation from myself to do things and I think if my self-motivation manifested into a person, then that person would be a great coach. In addition, I love myself. Of course, I have doubts and insecurities at times, but I don’t get emotionally constipated. I rarely hang on to negative emotions because I know that negativity doesn’t help me get anywhere. Thus, having a friend who keeps telling me to not sweat the small stuff, to relax and enjoy what I can do, to not let fear overwhelm me, and to remember that I am amazing would be great. Oh wait. I have friends like those. haaaaaaaaaah.

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 3: Are you holding onto something that you need to let go of? Yeah. I’m holding on to some disappointment. I’m disappointed that I trusted someone so deeply and found myself looking at a text that leads to nowhere. I don’t even know specifically why I’m disappointed anymore. I was hopeful of many things but I guess our paths will not converge anytime soon, and that’s okay.

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 3: Are you holding onto something that you need to let go of?

Yeah. I’m holding on to some disappointment. I’m disappointed that I trusted someone so deeply and found myself looking at a text that leads to nowhere. I don’t even know specifically why I’m disappointed anymore. I was hopeful of many things but I guess our paths will not converge anytime soon, and that’s okay.

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 2: What worries you most about the future?What currently worries me the most is money. USC dental is not a cheap school. Graduate school is a super expensive investment and, in my eyes, it’s ultimately a gamble. My first semester alone is going to be 40K, which means that even after my first semester, I already obtained a hefty financial burden. And in a way, I see it as a ‘no turning back’ point. It’s really an all-or-nothing gamble for me. I either don’t go through with my graduate education or I do it all. What worries me is what if I’m not good enough? What if I can’t complete my graduate education? My friends have told me that they have complete confidence in my skills to finish, and I am confident in my abilities. But for me, I cannot consider success without thinking of failure and the many ways I could fail. 4 years is a big commitment and the loans I’m going to take are going to be an even bigger commitment. Overall, it is just really scary for me. I have always spent money that I have. I hate this idea of spending money I don’t have. Ugh. However, I do know one thing. If this education is going to cost me so much, I’m going to get my most out of it. USC is not going to take advantage of me. I’m going to take USC for all it is worth. I’m going to graduate with my degree and think “Money well spent.”

40 Questions Everyone is Afraid to Ask Day 2: What worries you most about the future?
What currently worries me the most is money. USC dental is not a cheap school. Graduate school is a super expensive investment and, in my eyes, it’s ultimately a gamble. My first semester alone is going to be 40K, which means that even after my first semester, I already obtained a hefty financial burden. And in a way, I see it as a ‘no turning back’ point. It’s really an all-or-nothing gamble for me. I either don’t go through with my graduate education or I do it all. What worries me is what if I’m not good enough? What if I can’t complete my graduate education? My friends have told me that they have complete confidence in my skills to finish, and I am confident in my abilities. But for me, I cannot consider success without thinking of failure and the many ways I could fail. 4 years is a big commitment and the loans I’m going to take are going to be an even bigger commitment. Overall, it is just really scary for me. I have always spent money that I have. I hate this idea of spending money I don’t have. Ugh.

However, I do know one thing. If this education is going to cost me so much, I’m going to get my most out of it. USC is not going to take advantage of me. I’m going to take USC for all it is worth. I’m going to graduate with my degree and think “Money well spent.”